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Sunday, July 30, 2006

Finally had my chance to pen down my thots & life I went through. Unable to do so as I was rather busy with work & hardly had time for myself.

Sweetie had gone to Bangkok since last Thurs & only be back tomorrow night. Gosh! I really missed him alot. And this getaways do leave me thinking how much I will feel if he's not at my side. I do cherish being with him & treasure all the happy & sad memories with him. The laughter, the cheeky smile, the notty & playfulness of him, the scent he puts on.. simply to say everything about him makes me smile & laughed each time I think of him. Baby I want u home...

Yest I went to JB. Believe it or not aft 12yrs!!! haha.. Went there with Shalynn & her cousin, Nora.. n yes 3 babes!!! Im freaking worry cos heard lots of stuff there but alhamdulilah Im back in Spore. Not that bad afterall only that we have to endure with those stares & whistling here and there. Niwae, I manage to get my bunga rampai. Very nice... emm.. love it! But have yet to get my bunga paha & invitation cards.. still browsing. Still have ample time anyway. I was damn shag. Reached home ard 11 plus. Didnt have any rest since morning. We went there straight aft work & the feeling is like working fullshift.

Anyway, had restore my energy level today. Was too tired.. sleepy day for me. Gotta work tomorrow. When will the holidays be near? Need a break.. National Day pls come fast. Well babes.. enjoy ur wk ahead! Take care!
8:50 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Sunday, July 23, 2006

It seems so near now.. Only left like 5 more months! Nxt week gonna meet up with my deco planner & my caterer to decide on the menu. Gosh! Everything looks so fast now.. haha.. n im like soo nervous thinking of it. A little stress deciding on the deco, menu, outfits.. lots more.

Last wk, without expecting I've been awarded Service Excellence Award!!! I was soo stunned when my manager announce it to the rest. They all knew it all along except me. I was blushing all the way man. Anyway i was really glad that they appreciate for all the things that I've done.

Happy wkends & hope you guys have a great wk ahead! Cheers!!
2:38 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.

It seems so near now.. Only left like 5 more months! Nxt week gonna meet up with my deco planner & my caterer to decide on the menu. Gosh! Everything looks so fast now.. haha.. n im like soo nervous thinking of it. A little stress deciding on the deco, menu, outfits.. lots more.

Last wk, without expecting I've been awarded Service Excellence Award!!! I was soo stunned when my manager announce it to the rest. They all knew it all along except me. I was blushing all the way man. Anyway i was really glad that they appreciate for all the things that I've done.

Happy wkends & hope you guys have a great wk ahead! Cheers!!
2:38 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Sunday, July 16, 2006

Yest was sweetie's bday. Didnt do anything much as we have a tight budget. Bought him advance bday gift the other day. We had dinner & shop! Didnt i just said 'tight budget'?? lolzz.. we shop for our wedding gifts.. spend a few hundred bucks again. N still walking ard to browse for some other stuffs. Gosh! Without even realising, we're only left like less than 5 mths to the big day. Nervous babe!

I wanted to watch Pirates of the Caribbean but it was either fully book or slots are limited. Damn! Told him to book but he didnt. So end up we walked to n fro at Orchard ukur jalan..

Niwae I received good news from my best fren.. we'll be working together hand in hand again! Happy babe! Go bonkers together with the rest. Cant wait til tomorrow.. K babes enjoy ur week ahead! Take care.
12:10 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Lately I've been thinking of expanding my IT gadgets again. Haha... n this time round I'm thinking of getting a PDA phone. It's really convenient for me as its also act as a organizer & I dont have to brg along my very thick notebook ard for meetings except for those long meetings lah.. but w.t.h. man.. meeting will never be short niway!

And so i've been browsing in the forums & the website to check out on the latest gadgets & their specs. N this comes in handy too cos it helps in my work. I've been selected to take in-charge of mobile phones & IT products. So, in months to come i'll be a tech savvy babe! But for now.. i need to scram my brain to get more info on all these.

My phone is giving way man.. my beloved N70. It gives me prob rite from the start I bought it but still i treasure it! Now.. I just cant tolerate with it's laggyness & default tone. N there's another problem face up. Might be an excuse for getting a new phone?? no? well maybe.. haha
Told sweetie the other day but no reaction at all. Not sure if he agree with me to chg or bear with it til end of the yr. Stil considering for now. Luckily I'm having another mobile provided by the company.. n lucky me it's the latest! Cool aint it.. Part of the privilege working here.

Gotta turn in early today.. been yawning like anak singa since just now. So happy working babes out there!
9:51 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Monday, July 10, 2006

Time flew quite fast at work today. Unusual for a monday. Maybe I'm pretty tight up with the complaints?? (is there any?? maybe just the minor ones i guess).. besides that I'm training my new partner.. yea she used to work together & now we are back working hand in hand. Really missed those times but we are given a chance to work together again! Cool! I enjoy working with this babe.. Anyway my office will have some internal re-shufflement. Unfortunately I'm handling those with batu inside the big head! OMG!!! I'm thinking how am I gg to tolerate them man.. N the best part is there's only 1 babe & 4 dudes in my team while the other is 1 dude & 4 babes!! haha... but now i can solely concentrate on them.

Yesterday was suppose to attend a wedding of dearie's fren. I didnt turn up cos baby said that he's gg with his teammate.. hmmfff!! Boring! My mom in-law 2 b called early in the morning asking me to come by take some kuih she made.. she knows that i love her putri salat durian & koleh koleh. Sayang jugak dia kat me! hehehe.. So fetched sweetie @ JE & head to his plc. So hang ard at his plc & crap with Juli as usual. We head to Suntec. Browse for our wedding rings. My favourite part of cos.. loves the bling bling! The best part is almost every jeweller we head to is sweetie's fren! Such a small world. We then head to Cineleisure to catch a movie Havoc. It was a short movie but it's shows hw life is ard us. Having to live in a 'black' world involve with drugs, gangstarism(is there such word??), riots & sex. Those chicks who wants to experience so-called 'real world' out there & only to find themselves in deep trouble. It's a gd moral behind the story i guess & sort of make you realised how you end up to be in that kinda shit.. ( no offence though.. im just saying it generally). Well it does give a wake up call to somebody out there who watched the movie. It's not that superb or 5 stars rated kinda movie but it does give me some thoughts...
9:07 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Saturday, July 08, 2006

Thank god it's wkend now. As i promised myself that i really need to get the beauty nap that i've been missing for the past few weeks. I got to turn my sweetie down for asking me out. I really want to meet up with him but my body just cant take it anymore. It's just too weak.. in fact rite aft 1230, my eyes are already shutting down to half.

Had lunch for a while with Adeq & my boss. Thank god it's near my plc & he drives us there. The thought of eating fades away when i reached there as my mouth is too tired to munch. C hw lazy Lyea is for now... So just bought my sugarcane slurp it all bit by bit. Then I head to bakery shop to get some stuffs for tomorrow breakfast. Loves the smell of freshly bake breads.. Yum yum! N those delicious choco stuffs.. gotta think twice before i plc it on the tray. Aft thinking, i decided to go straight up to the cashier. Wah.. lyea can tahan such temptation huh?? Wait! While in the queue, somehow my eyes starts scanning the chiller fridge(is that what's it's called?? no idea), saw blueberry cheesecake tart! Without hesistation, told the aunty i want 2. Haha.. One for me & the other for my bro lah.. So there i go again.. calories added! LoL!

K babes! Have a lovely wkend ahead!!
10:05 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.

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10:02 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.

SuPerMan.. Going once.. SuPerMan.. Going twice??

Ha.. This wk i watched Superman twice! 1st was with sweetie cos he wanted to watch movie with me & the only 1 that is left is Superman. Knowing that i'm gonna catch it the 2nd time with my whole company, I dont want to disappoint him either so I go with the flow. Then today.. i watched it for the 2nd time and i can remember it vividly & even was telling my colleagues about it. Well initially I act as if I didnt know anything & then I just cant help it so i told my colleague that i had watch it on Tues. Aisyah gave me a stare but i just kept on laughing.

Today was abt to knock off from work when there's one damn bloody idiot complaint abt his item non-stop. That delay our time for an hr. End up we all rush to Far East to grab our dinner at Puncak. While waiting for the seats and the food to be serve, I went to one of the hair salon to get my fringe cut. It's soo messy & i cant take it anymore so off they go. They all was like a lil shocked cos sempat aku pegi cut hair.. well babes, anything impossible seems possible for me even if i have to rush here n there. So there I go.. snap snap abt 5 mins then off to the table to grab a bite. We're a lil late though, n went we reached the cinema.. it's was all pack with my company staffs. Gosh! Anyway, i did enjoy watching the gorgeous hunk in town! n.. his red underwear trademark! haha.. Notty notty lyea!
12:19 AM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Dragging myself to work today. Hardly can open up my eyes. Slept quite late yest.. Think about 2 plus. Consider really late for a person who hardly stay up pass 12am! Im gonna have a very nice eye bags & dark circles for now. Beauty sleep.. i need u now. Else i'm gonna be like one of those zombies in Resident Evil.. ya rite!

I cant tolerate some ppl at work who took me for granted. Stupid arse! Really dont appreciate for what i've done. Been covering for you for soo long now & I dont want to be covering ur arse anymore futher cause it's really affecting me & do no gd to you either. No improvement shown for the pass mths so it's best that I take action now. No point of having verbal warnings & councelling when there's not even a chg in them. Dont blame me for not giving advance warning which I did umpteen times. I'm not trying to be mean or what so ever.. but when comes to work, pls have some respect & I mean business & colleagues not friends & no respect at all. Well work smart & play hard. So just wait for the letter that's coming ur way now. Really hopes that's gonna be a wake up call for you to make a chg in the attitude your giving be it to me or to the rest of the colleagues.

Really glad that today I manage to knock off early (suprisingly). The peeps at work disappear macam pelesit! Luckily Adeq was there to wait for me. We head to IMM Diaso. She wanna get some crap stuffs from & as for me initially promise myself that im not gonna shop but... i bought some snacks! Diet konon.. there goes my diet plan! Haiz.. Gotta work harder in discipline myself. Determination is the key to my passed success story of putting off my weight. Heee...

Gd nitz ladies.. Gotta have early nite today. Else tomorrow have to find tooth-pick to open up my eyes.. Take care lovelies!
8:05 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.

Tuesday was a long day for me.. asides with all those complaints, my mind is still pretty messed up with both personal & work issues. Guess no one will understand hw i felt. It's a disappointment to know that the person whom i'm close with & the one that i turn to the most is not being supportive instead leave me hanging on my own to ans all the questions alone! N thanks for the stupid/silly ans that u gave to me. I'm not sure if I can hold up to it any longer. I might just blew it away any minute.

At work, think almost everybody now realised hw stressful life can be for me. Colleagues had gave feedback to me and by the end of the day, my big boss call me in to check on me. Well of course i told him that physically i'm fine but not mentally. He gave me some advices, joke ard, crap most of the time to make me feel better. It does help a little though. But somehow all these are just temporary & it will just come back to me end of the day. So somehow somewhere you still have to face the music & dance to the rhythm. Gosh! This is one real tough challenge that i have to overcome. N insya'allah i will.

Aft work, met up with him. Bought another Crumpler bag that he really wants which cost nearly 300. I would rather him buy me another Coach bag! haha.. of course not lah. We had dinner & watched movie which ends at 12am. N now im at home on the net cant shut my eyes. N the same time waiting for my bro to get back. He's now lepak-ing under the void deck with his motorbike frens.. haiz.. my bro is growing really fast now. Young man.. but whateva it is, he's still my notty lil bro!
12:40 AM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Monday, July 03, 2006

Super duper sleepy went reached office just now. Was praying very hard that hopefully not much complaint today & so far alhamdulilah most of them manage to clear. But i think tomorrow gonna be alot. Well.. mostly ppl wont be calling on monday as it's the start of the wk & they need to go for meetings.. do unfinished tasks.. yada yada...besides it's monday.. monday blues!

Mood today?? Guess not my day on this bluey monday. Was feeling really down, in daze & fatigue.

Cant really focus at work cause whatever happened on Sat, I vividly remember each & every single word. Still haunts me though. Have yet to come to any conclusion. Latest news got from my ex-neighbour whom lived just a couple doors away from my dad said that he put words in my mouth saying an impossible thing that I would say to my DAD!!! Gosh what was he thinking! It's really mean of him. He nvr chg since I last saw him like 6 yrs ago.. Now I really need to make a serious decision on all these. Which gonna effect my nikah, future & all. Still confused on shld I let him be my wali?? Every girl would want their dad to be the wali during their important day of their life. As for me, I'm really sad that I wouldnt be able to and even if I cld, there are so many things that are holding me back and there are so many factors that he's not eligible to be my wali. In a difficult situation now. Talked to my manager for advice on necessary action needed. Have yet to call ROMM to make enquiry. Been rather busy this few days. Hopefully tomorrow not that much stuffs for me to follow up so that i cld get away for 10 mins to call them.

Still pending for my new appointment letter. Yet to receive any since May. Pathetic aint it?? Well yea! Gotta wait for the director to approve it will actually take that long man.. Cant believe it! What to do? I still gotta wait til.. dunno when? Hopefully gd news coming up this couple of wks. *fingers crossed* ;p
9:45 PM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.
Sunday, July 02, 2006

Mummy... it's over!!! Finally.. I met up with him.

Yesterday met up with my dad. Was really nervous though. All the way from home I was thinking and telling my brother what's he gonna say this time round. It really gives the shiver.

Niwae yest met sweetie under my dad's void deck in the evening with my bro. Head upstairs.. his face was not really happy when he saw us.. and he even talked to us like nak taknak.. As usual I'm really pissed off with the kind of attitude he gave us.. Thought of taking him out for dinner (mind you, i think our last dinner was like 6 yrs back) but he was sitting there in the living room and eating. So we didnt want to disturb him so head downstairs & told him that we go up later.. His so-called wife was there smilling.. I never even bother about that biatch.. sorry to say this cos it really hurts me each time i think about my late mom.. All this would never happen if she's not ard.. dammit! I would never forgive my dad & the B!! Aft soo much suffering.. Never will i!

We waited for 10 mins & we head up again.. Go in the house which i totally insist. We talked & he brought up abt the past. Sweetie express his hajat of gg there & he even told him that I will be under his care aft marriage & he assured him that at least once a yr during raya we visit him. Aft a while he cool off & that B start to put on drama.. crying saying that both of them miss us.. blah.. blah.. who is she to miss me & bro. She's a total stranger to us & we didnt even know her much except that she's a bitch who been trying to brg our family down since i was 9. We exchg numbers & then went off. My eyes are really red & my nose too.. just imagine snow white & the seven dwarfs.. the latter is what i look like!

Head off to Al-Ameen @ Bukit Timah to have dinner. Have not been eating since morning & I'm famished. As usual I'm always the last one to order.. very fussy aite. Im putting more weight again. Soo guilty. Gotta start kicking out those sweet craving else I'm gg back to square one!
11:03 AM
Yi'm blinded by the love that u shower me.




The GirlY
Eyes lay on each other on Sept'01. Happily engaged on June'04. Blissfully married to the same man of my life, Mr N on Dec'06. Him who I adore is my pillar of strength, one who guided me to see the light on the other end and shown me how meaningful life can be.